It is a question I have been asked multiples times throughout my life.
I am a mom.
I am a partner.
I am an author.
I am a daughter.
I am a sister.
I am an employee.
I am a chauffeur.
I am a cook.
Who am I?
As I read these words, they feel generic. Do they really tell anyone who I am?
They are a mask.
They are the words I use in small talk, with people I do not feel a connection with. They do not really describe who I am.
I was watching Parenthood earlier this evening. I am on Season 1 Episode 8. Sarah Braverman asks her mom why her daughter hates her. Somewhere in the conversation mom tells Sarah she identifies the most with her. She tells her she admires Sarah for not being afraid to take risks and that she needs to embrace that part of herself.
I wish I could find a clip of it. It was one of those ah-ha moments for me.
This is why…
I have a small fear of taking risks, but I LOVE taking them. And I do take them. I put myself out there for the world to judge and scrutinize.
I might not be jumping out of airplanes or hiking across China, but when I put my mind to something I jump in with both feet.
Sometimes I land on my ass and have to put my tail between my legs and face my failures.
Sometimes I land on my feet and take off running.
And sometimes… well sometimes I fly.
Those moments I fly… they are what makes every risk, every failure and every heartache worth the moment where I jumped.
I am a creator.
I create the world I want to live in. Because of my creations, I have become a mother.
I have become a partner.
I have become an author.
Although I was born into my family, I become a daughter and I become a sister because of my choices.
I create my life.
I am a creator.
I am transforming.
I choose how to become better. I choose to shed old and negative habits and embrace positivity and empowerment.
I am evolving.
I am strong.
I am powerful.
I am beautiful.
I am inspiring.
I am adventurous and I am fun.
I am unique.
I am all of these and more, because I choose to be. Anyone can describe themselves with a role they play in life, but how will anyone really know you if you play small. I am so much more than my roles in life.
I choose to live out loud.
I choose to risk being hurt, ridiculed and mocked, because the joy of truly living, outweighs the fear of rejection.
I am compassionate.
I am playful and I am full of sparkle.
I am a light. A light that flickers, on occasion, and needs reminders of who I am.
I am me.
Don’t play small.
Live life out loud and be the light in the world.