How I Destroyed Myself
In order to save myself I must destroy first, the me I was told to be. - The DreamerTo be honest, it didn't take a whole lot of effort to destroy myself. In fact, I'm fairly certain 87% of it occurred while I wasted my time watching television shows and eating junk food. Not much effort at all.
Sure, I made excuses.
- I've been working all day.
- I worked out twice already this week, that's enough for now.
- I ate a salad for lunch.
So... I'm reinventing myself.
I'm tearing down walls and stripping away the studs. It's been a long time coming and I've procrastinated for as long as I possibly could. But guess what? I'm not really happy. I have been falling and slamming into roadblocks at every turn. And it felt like nothing was going my way.
I have the means and the ability to shift my path and for that I am grateful. It might take some extra work and long hours, but in the end it will be worth it.
When life begins destroying you in small, subtle ways, creating a space where you are no longer fulfilled, happy or content, it's the universes way of telling you to make a change. I was already destroying myself by allowing myself to lose sight of goals and plans, but now I'm actually building on that destruction and going inward.
It's time I rise to the next level.
It's time I stop focusing on what I can't change, and steer my sailboat into a much smoother voyage. I desperately deserve a break from the crashing waves.
This is my month. My "ME" project. Because when I'm my best self, I'm the best for everyone else. I don't have it all figured out, but I'm working on it and I plan on having a new perspective, a new foundation, and a fresh mindset by the end of this month.
Love and hugs from me!